Live life, Love life.

2011-10-20T23:36:00.000-07:00

I dont like people trying to extinguish the fire but not bothering to identify the cause of the fire... ... ..

what am i doing here again lol

2011-10-16T22:08:00.000-07:00

Its a good thing that no other people actually knew that this blog actually existed, so I can say and spew all the crap that I want, lol.

But what am I doing here again, crrapping or crying or emoing or exasperating or just plain bored, I also dunno. But one thing I know very clear, I am going to die. Yay. That can make someone happier by tons. The irony is, as I am typing, she is less than 4 metres away from me. So? Dah who cares. NO one is gonna see this anyway, even if someone does see this, I would have already be dead. So, might as well pour my heart out, right here, right now.

"you tell me theres no turning back for you and me
even if i plead even if i beg, youre heartless as can be
but because i really ly
so i aint there to stop you
then i turn and wipe my tears away as you fly away"

"my time is ending
someone is laughing
nobody's eyes are stinging"

wow i am amazed at my own composing skills :D
(and my crapping skills as well XD)
So that's what I have decided to do. I shall go away, and make everyone happier. Well, at least, her. She is happy = I own the world. (Doesn't that mean I own the world already)

Signing off,
CITARO LOV3R
352 posts since Jul '11

2010-07-26T21:54:00.000-07:00

I feel like that I have no other point to live on anymore... ...

Is my relationships with girls that bad? Nobody ever knew how jealous I am when I see people talking love talk with their special someone in some lonely, while I can only sulk in one corner... ... Yes I knew that I was once one of the lovers' group, but too bad I didn't cherish that special moment, then that was just a distant memory. It was like the only matter that I could waste a total of nine hours of crying time. I did not want to be with any girl anymore, it just widens that hole in my brittle heart, I think I just want to shut myself off from anyone, and be all alone... This way I could confine to my own world: no worries at all, no expectations, and no lovebirds that make me fucking sixk to the gut... ...

2010-05-06T21:42:00.000-07:00

At Changi Airport's Terminal 3, I saw a Malaysian Airlines' Boeing 737-800 landing safely. I was very very happy, because one of Boeing's (and the world's) most problematic planes have landed safely...

2010-04-28T19:39:00.000-07:00

I wrote this post on the 29th April 2010, at 10:39am, so that asshole who bullied me should see this, since he is sitting right next right to me at 10:40am.

If not of what WSC had done on the 15th April 2010, the poor me would not have cried almost every single day, for that person who is somewhere in this school. And the worst thing is that he felt -100% remorse and went to spread more! Like spreading Nutella on Bonjour bread.

Now my only sincere hope is that what Wan Si Chen said would not reach her ears, or she will be pestered all day long by nosy people, and worst of all, sever all the possible future that I could have with her.

2010-04-12T21:34:00.001-07:00

I had found the two safest commercial passenger jets that I know: the 777 twinjet from Boeing, and the A340 four-engine wide-body jet from Airbus... Once I knew that the JL721 that i took from Kuala Lumpur back to SG is a Boeing 747, I felt sooooooooo lucky to be alive!!!

2010-04-12T21:15:00.000-07:00

Ok, so I have composed a short little tune on the piano... no lyrics (yet), so it lies unused in my mind, but I think of a classical love song lyrics for this tune, used for me in remembrance of her, whom I have been most intimate with, and the one whom I had cried for on the bus home... ...

2010-02-17T06:52:00.000-08:00

Just downloaded GTA San Andreas during CNY. Got stuck on playing it and forgot about factorizing algebraic equations. Sianz

2010-02-08T02:20:00.000-08:00

My Sec 1 junior wanted me to teach him how to play the Titanic theme song "My Heart Will Go On" after watching me play it. He said that it was nice, and wanted me to teach him, so that he could play it to his girlfriend on Valentines Day (Hmm, that is 6 days later, eh). To be honest, I feel slightly jealous, as i don't have anyone to play it to... (Stood alone emoing and tearing for 10+ minutes???)

Sigh, when I HAD someone to play it to last year, I did not know any love songs, and at that time I was too fixed in GTA Vice City Stories. Then when I had finally broke free of GTA, I was left alone, again. Say, relationships can be tough, eh?

I think traditional is best.

2010-02-04T05:43:00.000-08:00

Ok, now I admit that though my name is PC, I say that I am not so IT savvy after all. Now I told my MSP teacher that I am. What can I do? Get a green form for lying? Only God knows what lies ahead of me.

2010-02-04T05:35:00.000-08:00

Is New Really Better?

2010-02-04T04:49:00.001-08:00

I doubt my wisdom of changing my blogskin... now I have problems posting stuff where I wanted it to be, hmmm... Maybe I could have stuck with my old, outdated but trusty default template...

2010-02-04T04:38:00.000-08:00

Hey, where did my previous posts go???

Is something wrong with me?

2010-02-04T04:05:00.000-08:00

I wonder if I can rid myself of these grown-up thoughts. These thoughts come back to me whenever I see her... Believe me, I have tried 20 times to concentrate on more important matters, and did not succeed. Damn, last year's February seemed to repeat itself again. She is putting all the female hormones on me, like she used to do last year. Look at it this way: identical dressing, speech manner and personality toward me. And seriously no matter how much I liked or disliked her and/or her, I do not like the feeling. I do not, shall not and will not, cry because I offended any girl anymore. I feel so un-manly that time, come to think of it now.

Random Day

2010-02-02T17:50:00.001-08:00

Super boring sia. Just some random day that I go to school and learn about some stuff useful for growth. Anycase, this is boring

2010-01-16T05:55:00.000-08:00

2010-01-10T17:58:00.000-08:00

Yeah yeah, so the new school year has begun again... Not only do I have to concentrate on my school work, I have to keep thinking about something that has been bothering me for the whole of the 2nd semester last year... Can't get it off my mind forever, when I start thinking of this lil' thing I have to think of GTA VCS to get my mind off things. Now my whole world is about sniping people from my safehouse in Vice Point and emoing over that pesky little thing. Sign off.

2009-10-28T20:18:00.000-07:00

Isaac screwed my PSP. That is all I have to say.

He went to alter my PSP's really complicated system settings and now, ALL THE FUCKING GOD DAMN GAMES CANNOT START! AND GUESS WHAT? THE FUCKING FUCKER ISAAC DENIES SPOILING THE MACHINE! IF I HAD A REAL KATANA I WOULD SCREW HIM.

2009-10-27T17:16:00.000-07:00

Let me say again that I HATE THIS DEFAULT FONT... ...

Ok so I finally found this movie that I have watched when I was 7. The movie is called "The Perfect Storm", and it tells the story of how the swordfishing boat, the Andrea Gail, capsized and sank when it met a giant, 100ft high rouge wave, near the Sable Islands,I think.

Somehow I liked ship movies(like Titanic and Poseidon), but they all have disastrous endings. (The Titanic sunk hitting an iceberg while the Poseidon suffered about the same fate as Andrea Gail, capsized by a similar wave). My father scolded me then, saying that I was sadistic and had no sympathy for the dead or the victims. I said that I watched them only for the sake of the ships,but he would ask, 那你为什么这么喜欢看美国纽约世界贸易中心倒塌事故呢? Well that is a different story.

It all started when my HCL teacher taught the class on a topic "居安思危" by showing the 911 incident he took from Youtube. I pity the victims, but was attracted by the music used. So I youtubed the same video at home and keo listening to the music while watching United Airlines Flight 11 fly into the WTC tower 2. Cos of that, my dad reprimanded me again.

Ahh never mind. I wan go play psp le. Bye.

Another Random Post

2009-10-07T06:37:00.003-07:00

Finally no more default font :DDD
Could be a gloomy day for me. That Jay Sng forgotten to bring his summary for the x time. That had seriously pissed off our English teacher, Miss Nisrin. She called Jay's mom openly in front of the whole class. The more hardworking ones are drilling some inferential skills and doing open-ended comprehensions. The more nosy ones are looking at every single move our teacher made. I heard a sentence that jerked me out of my journey in the Arabica plantations in my worksheet and looked at Miss Nisrin and Jay. Jay was to be brought to the Principal! The y time in his educational life!! I mean, although that guy had said f*ck to me for n times, we still rely on each other for some group work. I do not wish for him to be expelled. He still needs to be educated. I could, perhaps, recommend him to join me in the junior monk retreat this year-end holiday. This might change him.

2009-10-05T23:15:00.000-07:00

I STILL HAVE NOT RECEIVED ANY COMMENTS ON MY HALO 3 NEVER FORGET PIANO VIDEO I POSTED ON YOUTUBE, BUT TILL NOW, 170 PPL WATCHED IT.

911

2009-10-05T23:10:00.001-07:00

I am blogging with some emo mo mo music in the background music that sounded like ppl mourning for the <3000 ppl who perished on 11/9/01. Cos for no particular reason, I feel lyk criyng. AAAH, screwed. dun talk about it. The damned EOY is coming. Well, good luck for the EOYs. Especially Jay Sng. No sarcastic words used.

MY MOM

2009-10-04T08:16:00.000-07:00

No title.

2009-10-04T08:10:00.000-07:00

WHY THIS FUCKING DEFAULT FONT AGAIN???
Jay, i tell you now: STOP TRYING TO IRRITATE ME. STOP BEING SUCH A LAME AND IMMATURE GUY WHO GOES AROUND JUDGING BOOKS BY THEIR COVERS. PEOPLE WHO CREATES RHYTHM AROUND THE TABLE DEFINITELY DO NOT SLEEP SINGING. SO WHAT IF I AM A TENOR IN THE CHOIR??? YEAH YEAH. GO AHEAD AND SCREW AND FUCK YOURSELF. GOT IT, JAY SNG WEI XUAN? OR JAY SUX WEI XUAN?

asdfghjkl

2009-10-04T07:55:00.000-07:00

What the hell is wrong with blogger, I dunno. I hate the default font, but that is not what I want to say. Firstly, I am not feeling healthy. I sweat for no damn reason (even in air-conditioned rooms) and I feel like screwing the PE lessons up. And I could not sleep at night. I am pretty sure it is because of someone in class. No, definitely not Jay. Even if he said that I should die and gave me a punch in the face I could fall asleep before I got on bed. Probably Isaac and his everyday GTA IV-ing attitude. Maybe it's that vice-chairperson that cannot seem to stop making me inhale the lmao gas. But after these cases, I never failed drifting a perfect lap around a circuit in my 1965 Chevrolet Corvette. Leaves me wondering.

...

2009-09-22T00:02:00.000-07:00

Isaac keeps yapping about GTA IV all day long while he sits right in front of me...
What is the problem? I WANTED GTA IV TOO BADLY AND I CANNOT GET IT JUST BECAUSE
1: I am not 18.
2:My com only has 1/2 GB RAM, and the game MINIMUM requirement is 2 GB.
3: Even if I am 20, my parents won't buy me one.

Here I want to tell my mother something: 妈咪，我要买GTA IV.　您能买给我吗？

2009-09-21T23:48:00.000-07:00

Just for some people who dunno what those abbrievations on my new heading means.

lol=laugh out loud
rofl=roll on floor laughing
lmao=laugh my ass off
roflmao=roll on floor laughing my ass off.

Fine, this is lame. Gtg.

I am emo.

2009-08-27T04:42:00.000-07:00

Recently I had realised that I am very emo.

2009-08-25T06:27:00.000-07:00

Felt boring today. Go school, learn about some useful stuff, come home, feel emo for a little while, then I shall chat with my friend still in P5. Boring.
Man, I am losing my grasp of vocab.

2009-08-18T07:15:00.001-07:00

I had a god-damn bad day. I believe more bad days are coming up ahead. Here I am, posting with the late MJ's "You Are Not Alone", but I think I am really am alone. No, wad the fucking hell am I talking about? I think I am still recovering from yesterday's whole bombard of angry words. The whole entire Tuesday today I am faking up a really pseudo happy face, until that Jay made me laugh abit. Allow me to repeat myself: I need to see a counsellor... ...

Random Post

2009-08-17T05:45:00.000-07:00

Finally broke down.

2009-08-17T05:30:00.000-07:00

Defeated guy feels lyk cryin', but he's a guy, so he didn't.
I pity him, really.

Verrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrry emoistic

2009-08-17T05:28:00.001-07:00

Anybody, cheer me up please. The most emo guy in class needs some gags just to smile.

Beware what you say.

2009-08-17T05:26:00.000-07:00

I had better think 1,000,000 fucking times before posting any fucking post on my blog.

Short Post

2009-08-13T07:18:00.000-07:00

I dunno how many posts have I written today. Regarding some guy called Jay Sng Wei Xuan. Sometimes I think that he has a part to play for not getting many friends. He is sometimes gay, and he luves to yell out loud and pretend to strangle me, with some childish voice. That kind of behavior did cause some ppl to distance him. He needs to correct that so he can enlarge his circle of friends(STOP CALLING ME A MUSIC NERD/CONDUCTOR BRAIN!! SO WAD IF I LIKED TO CONDUCT THE AIR???)and keep his current ones(namely, me). Man, I will kowtow to him if he succeeds to befriend David.

Come what may, I am ready.

2009-08-13T00:37:00.000-07:00

I hope I can prepare myself for such a day (if there is really going to be such a day) that I severed ties with Jay Sng due to his continuous irritation. Sigh, I really need to widen my circle of frens. Jay, you need to change your behavior, be more mature and not be too irritating so that you can (probably) keep me and win more new frens. (It can be done. Term 1 and 2, I hated David soooo much that I wanted to squash him lyk a bug. But now I am walking with him to Tanah Merah MRT and eating one of his cola sweets!)And that is not because I forced him (or vice versa)to be nicer to each other. We just became good like that. And Jay, do not complain that what: "You are popular but I am not", or "How can I approach (whoever)when(whoever)treated me like a bad ass?" I am really sick of those kind of bloody excuses. OK FINE AM I OVERHELPING HIM??? I don't know but sometimes it is better to leave him as he already is rather than using all my energy to turn him around and try to help enlarge his circle of friends. For crying out loud... ...

这些都是我的肺腑之言，希望孙伟轩能听进去.

2009-08-13T00:35:00.000-07:00

I NEED A GOD DAMN COUNSELLOR (NOT COACH DANIEL) COS 我不要把事情闹大. YOU KNOW WAD I MEAN??? I DON WANT TO MAKE A MOUNTAIN OUT OF A MOLEHILL.

2009-08-13T00:06:00.000-07:00

K fine dunno why the font like this one... cos normally it is arial (i chose it but also dunno why it appears like this, screw blogger lah) and not times new roman. Fine, anyways I feel quite irritated with that god-damn Jay again... He just keeps coming up with weird and childish games (eg: Forgetting who i am like that amnesia game) that he keeps using to bombard my nerves. He keeps trying it on me cos ppl like Jerry, Jian Cheng, Alaric, David or most ppl who looks down on him will not give a damn or to give a heck of comment on the lame knock-knock jokes he always crack. I had told him that I had my own "boiling point" and that I am reaching it soon, but he never seemed to care, and now he started punching, zapping, tickling me and sometimes taunting me and saying no offence afterward. I told him that I hit him cos of a reason and he had no right to strike back again, and i think his skull is too thick for all that common sense to get through. Every now and then, we two would quarrel due to some "I hit you you hit me" matters and some "no offence" matters and although I always win the argument, Jaybird (if anyone from 1A sees this, NEVER EVER tell him, or I would be missing a limb or two) never gives up. His incredibly weird excuses really make me wanna faint. Wad de fuck. Can some kind 1A soul kind enough to talk to Jay tell him to stop irritating poor pc, currently at 95 degrees Celsius and boiling at 100?

2009-08-05T05:38:00.000-07:00

I just confessed my biggest ever secret to some guy whom I know quite well at some playground at Vivo City, and he just kept sniggering.

But, the secret somehow links to why I can't sleep well at all at night. Phew, I need to see a counsellor.

Choir rawks

2009-07-11T05:56:00.000-07:00

Ok I know I have not posted for a verrrrrry long time, and so just anyhow posted something.

Well I performed with the choir at the Esplanade on the 30th June. Ok, so I think that it was still not bad, but from (Sleep) onward, many songs started going out of pitch, and Mr Toh ain't pleased at all. The best peace, that I think, is the encore piece, Ubi Caritas. I think it was a fantastic piece to end off a concert at the Esplanade: wonderful piano accompaniment, the emo mo mo melody and... ok I dunno how to describe, but it is just magnnificent. Yeah. Dunno wad to say next. end.

ME NEAR THE EDGE OF NOT BEFRIENDING JAY ANYMORE

2009-05-24T22:45:00.000-07:00

Sometimes I think that : although Jay is my friend, I still think that he needs to know that I have my own tolerance limit. You know, he keeps playing the "Amnesia" game on me (I think its lame) and not others, cause he knew only I would live up with his pranks. As the days went past, my tolerance started wearing out.
Well come this day when we were one day to the deadline for some ACC project. Well, I was at fault partly because I slacked for my 补汤part, and explained to Jay why I was slacking. But somehow, Jay keeps pestering me and saying why this, why that, etc. I could not take it anymore. So I basically I ignored him for that day. But, come to think of it, he was sort of my only close friend in class, and if I lost him, I would have no one to confine my woes into. Well, during HCL last Friday, I thought deeply bout it while crying....and decided to forgive him.

2009-04-03T05:53:00.000-07:00

"Because you had a bad day"
"You're taking one down"
"You sing a sad song just to turn it around"
That's right. We all have bad days. Well recently I went through a VERY bad day, well it gave me a right to cry about (well I didn't, nearly). SO here's wat follows:
It is Thursday. Me, Jay and Bai Chen are having E.lit lessons. in the MRH. As usual, those two are arguing all day over trivial matters, which had strted a century alot. Now it got Mrs. G's attention. She called my group on an interview, and stated the problems why our group did not fare well in marks for teamwork and progress. After listening, I would have cried my eyes out if there were a wad of tissue ahead of me. I actually reprimanded Jay and Bai Chen for that. I made sure that Jay and Bai Chen get along well, or I would use the maybe useful and un-biased method I have up my sleeve.

2009-03-30T23:57:00.000-07:00

Ok, sorry for not updating the blog for such a long time, since I updated it a thousand milleniums ago (I like to exxagerate in an exxagerating manner). So, well, let P.C tell ya some stories... ...

Well it is not really a story but it seems like a record of what happened in school, in class, or whatever. Anyways, the "over and gone" March holidays, I went over to bai chen's house to touch on some sort of EL project. (Jian Cheng, aka Lychee, kept saying me freeloader for geog project, which in the end, I still contributed something.). Well the whole thing was smooth except for when Bai Chen called Jay some nasty names (and crybaby too, after Jay cant take it anymore and cried). Well I was always the peace negotiator, the counsellor or whoever think I bloody am. So I can see that Jay and Baichen hate each other even more, which is pretty obvious, and I think that I could soon be hated cos I befriended Jay. 100% NO OFFENCE, OKAY JAY???????!!!!!!! :)
Alright. I think I should scram now. I would be kena-ed if mr gey finds out that I am missing the detailed development plan for the photo frame sub. 2!!!
By the way, the boy who was peeping at my blog script from 3.15 to 3.25, can feel free to continue peeping... After all this site is accessible by anyone in the world... I mean, it's public! Heehee.

2009-03-02T22:04:00.000-08:00

Hi again! Welcome to the blog of pc.
Well one day I read my comments and saw that someone said that my blog sux, ok fine I admit that. But I gonna need some guiding for me to upgrade my current blog that sux, to a blog that rawks like hell!
As you know, I only started blogging a week ago, and this blog is obviously my first. So please, teach me how to create a custom blogskin so that it attracts more people up there!
Ok, I am out of space and time. So, I shall go now! Ciao!

27 February 2009

2009-02-27T04:35:00.000-08:00

Hi guys! Welcome to my blog.

Erm, one look at it and u know it is created by a newbie, well, the blog may need more improvement, as it is still in its eaarly stages... ... Well u guys (or girls) can suggest how I can improve on the blog and well, remember to tag ur URL address or email.

Well, I gotta go! Work in sec school is tough! Ciao!